Unmasking: The Journey To Knowing Myself

When I found out I was Autistic a year and a half ago, my entire world changed. Suddenly, I had more questions than answers—enough to make my head spin. Since then, I’ve been slowly finding those answers, one by one.

Even before my diagnosis, TikTok had already started showing me content from Autistic creators. Because of that, I was familiar with the idea of unmasking. My therapist also guided me through the process, offering insight and support. But it was one of the most difficult times in my life. I was struggling to work, feeling desperate for help, and decided to try Teledoc. That’s where I met my therapist—someone who listens, challenges me to grow, and celebrates my successes. In many ways, she has become like a mother to me. I wouldn’t be where I am today without her, and I’ll always be grateful for the impact she’s had on my life.

I started unmasking right away. At first, it was painful—going all the way back through my childhood, questioning everything. Were my interests, habits, and personality truly mine? Or were they shaped by what others expected of me? It was a slow process, but over time, the pieces started falling into place. All the answers I had craved my entire life were right here.

I’ve spent the past year and a half rebuilding myself from the inside out—rethinking my perspectives, my morals, and even the way I see myself. And while I’m not finished, I’m okay with that. Unmasking is a lifelong journey, and I’m ready for whatever comes next.

I know who I am now, and that feeling is priceless. Autism is tough and spiky, yet soft and bright at the same time. It’s beautiful—the way we can rediscover and rebuild ourselves. I’m still learning, and I love that. I know I don’t have all the answers, but damn, if I’m not eager to learn.

Thanks for joining me on this journey—one day at a time.